2011 is almost over…Posted by Ali on December 28, 2011
So now, 1 year later… I’m letting go. I’m forgiving myself for missing my Grandma in her last days. I’m forgiving the crazy lady at the barn for going crazy on us. There was no obvious, rational reason for her sudden change of heart, but last year was the 1 year anniversary of her brother passing. Her mom also passed away, quite a few years ago, but it was obvious when the subject came up she hadn’t resolved her emotions with the situation, and the same was obvious with her brother. This crazy lady had a lot of sadness and death in her life, and I think she just lost it, and she took it out on us. A very sad situation. For me, that doesn’t excuse her actions towards us last year, we did nothing to provoke her and she screwed us in return. So, I guess I’m forgiving her for being human, and not being able to handle her own inner turmoil. I do hope since last then Karen has found the emotional help and support she so desperately needed. So with this blog post (and the next good rain It’s time to let the situations go, but remember the lessons learned. 2012 will be fabulous!
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A year ago today, in 2010, my grandmother passed away. On Christmas of 2010, I was so busy rushing to get our horse’s out of a crazy lady Karen’s barn, I didn’t see her. I missed my chance to see my Grandma, for the last time, on Christmas. I was, for a lack of better word, heartbroken. I had even planned to see her after the horses were moved, but that didn’t happen, she was out of time. 
), I’m letting go of 2010 and 2011. They both had their good and bad, but I have never gone through the emotional battles I faced in the past two years, and I never would’ve made it without a fabulous boyfriend, parents, mermaids and friends. 
too bad you made the wrong choice, now you will have to live the rest of your life with regret….
Barry – so glad to see you’re still following my blog. Have you seen how well Angel and Annie get along? They have been turned out together hundreds of times and get along great! I assume it’s because they aren’t being fed in one pile with numerous dominant horses, that usually helps. Well, the great thing is I know my grandma loved me, and I know she wanted me to do what was best for my family (including my horses) at the time. Her gift, even though I wasn’t able to be there to see her receive it, was a photo of Brady and myself, and she loved it. It sat on her dresser and she looked at it before she went to bed, and when she got up in the morning. She told me how much she loved it, and she was always supportive of my family and horses until her last day. I still feel her around me, giving lending me her strength and support to get through life and handle people who cannot handle their own lives, and take things out on others.
I have no regret, I didn’t say anywhere in this post I regretted anything, and now I know for a fact our horses are taken care of, and their care isn’t subjective to the owner playing favorites. I hope Karen is in a better state now than she was, and I hope one day for you both to find peace. It’s obvious by your comment you haven’t let go yet.
yes we have heard ALL the stories….and just so everyone knows, the piles were over 30 feet apart and it was just the two of them….in case you forgot…it probably would have worked out but after Angle tried to kick me in the chest it was time to separate the two horses….once again looking out for the well being of YOUR horses so they didn’t get hurt. Always trying to make you happy and comfortable here…. Move on and quite harrassing us…..and the regret will dig at your heart forever….
oh, and I am not following your blog, a professional friend told me I should read what you are saying about US now….i only read the blogs that give good advice….
Thank you for wishing me negativity and regret, things that I would never wish upon anyone – even you and Karen. But thank you anyway. In return, I hope that you and Karen can move past what happened.